Why?

Since Sunday morning the same question has been on my mind...Why? 

For weeks we have been going through the Book of Revelation.  While Pastor was talking about Jesus himself having blood on his robe and locking Satan away for 1,000 years I started asking why.  Why did God create us the way He did?  If He created us to have a relationship, why did He create us with free will? He knew that some of us would turn away from Him, He knew that in the end Jesus would have to come back and rid the world of evil.  If He knew we would turn away and this beautiful, horrible day would come why wouldn't He just create a playmate, a friend, a companion?  We could all just live in Eden forever without a care, walking in the garden along side God.

Why?   It is all about relationship.  The awesome relationship that we were created for.   There is no foundation for a relationship if you are in it because you have to be or you are supposed to be. Where is the joy in that? The ones in your life that you can't wait to see; your spouse, parents, friends, children.  These are the ones you go to in times of sorrow and in times of joy. You have a desire to share the most intimate details of your life with that one person that makes your heart jump.  When we have that desire for God we have the cornerstone of a relationship that doesn't compare to anything this side of Heaven. 

On this walk I have shared some amazing and sorrowful times with my Father.  He has walked with me during the most joyful times of my life.  During the greatest blessings of my life, while I was holding my babies for the first time, He was holding me.  He also held me through the worst times.  When my husband lost his job and we didn't know where our house payment was going to come from our how we were going to buy groceries.   He held me when our oldest daughter died just after her 20th birthday.  He held me when I was diagnosed with cancer and through the process of kicking cancer's butt.  He held me when the bank was threatening to take my home. 

These trials are what create a bond, a relationship that is worth working on. I spent many years trying to handle it all and be everything to everyone.   The amazing thing is that when I took that first step He was waiting there for me, because I am the one that makes his heart jump. When we are bumped our true selves come out.   I have found that my true self is a child of God.  I want to belong to Him because He loves me enough to be my everything and that makes my heart jump. 

Romans 5:3-5
"...we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know suffering produces perseverance; perseverance , character; and character hope.  And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."