Time to Get Raw

It's time I change things up a bit. When this blog came into being I began it with the intention of being anonymous.  I felt that God wanted me to share many details of my life because there were women that my story might touch. The reason to keep it anonymous was for my family, mostly my husband.  It may take me a bit to open up but once I do I am an open book and will share in detail my life, my feelings, my beliefs etc. but I don't feel I have the right to share the personal lives of others. 

Recently God has revealed the truth to me like He always does when I get quiet enough to listen.   I believe with all my heart that women like myself need someone to relate to.  This year I will be celebrating 24 years of marriage with a man that has no relationship with our Father.  This puts every trial on a much grander scale because we do not look at solutions in the same way.  We do not go to the same place for help, guidance, reassurance, love etc.  Every decision, no matter how big or small can be divisive. 

I finally understand that sharing this is not a slam, it is not gossip, it is not sharing something personal about him.  The truth is that God gave us freedom to choose. My husband chose one path and I chose another.  It does not make him any less in God's eyes or me any more.  It is a matter of free will.  I hope and pray that some day he will want to know more and long to see His daddy's face just as I do.  But that must be his decision.

I began this site with other women in mind.  I have written the words that  God has put on my heart but it is time to get to the real stuff.  I am not sure what it is going to look like or what God will have me share.  I don't know how personal I will be getting but I do know that I have to get raw. I have to let it out there for others to see. Others need to see the struggles of a relationship that is not built on a strong cornerstone.  I no longer see it as the private life of another it is just life. 

My hope is to open a dialog and that this site can be used for nothing but the glory of God. To show his grace and wisdom and help each other work through all of our struggles with the experiences of our Christian family.

Thank you Jesus for being the truth the light and the way.